Relationship status: praying.
Start with prayer. Every day. Every hour. Don’t rely on your own strength to beat this. Ask God to give you strength and then run at this wall with all your might.
If there are things in your life that are help you be proud, ashamed, and lazy, ditch them. Or at least give them to a friend to hold on to you until you get your life on track. I’m thinking things like video games that distract you from giving it all.
God bless you!